My PriSoN WiThOuT bArS

im back bitches<3

2007-08-01T08:12:02Z

ok i'm giving this journal thing one more shot.
i'm way too tired to go into detail right now so i'll just leave my new favorite quote;

Learn to let go of the past, and recognize that everyday won't be sunny, and when you find yourself lost in the darkness and despair, remember it's only in the black of night you see the stars; and those stars will lead you back home. So don't be afraid to make mistakes, or stumble and fall, cause most of the time the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe you'll get everything you wish for. Maybe you'll bet more than you ever could have imagined. Who knows where life will take you. The road is long and in the end, the journey is the destination.

lilmaze789 @ 2004-10-28T01:33:00

2004-10-28T05:34:41Z

ok peeps..i dont think livejournal is just poppin off anymore 2 me. so i have moved to Xanga ..agaian lol. update the linkssss

my NEW journal...woo woo

lilmaze789 @ 2004-10-28T00:22:00

2004-10-28T04:25:23Z

H A P P Y 18th B I R T H D A Y K E L L I <3

woo woo. yeaaa bajungous mess #1 is 18..finally lol. have an awesome bday girl...yayyyyyyyyyy <33333 ya lots

ice is cool..but im lookin for [m o r e]*

2004-10-25T05:07:29Z

i havent written in a few jerkss, but my insomnia is settin in so i have nothin better to do so i mite as well update =)

i worked 2-11 tonite. im exhaustedddd. i worked my ass off. i worked with joey and chris mac so it wasnt too unbearable. plus i BANGed christine first =) i winnn biznotch! ps. yes joe..we are DEF hangin out this friday no matter what!!! =)

i had an amazing conversation with ms. katelyn thomas tonite!

Kaytee 2 29 2: haha heall yeah the can call them hippofucks

hell yea we can yo! haha crazy asshole. u are my therapist. haha. i got 2 cameras developed yesterday. funny times, we got my baby kittens, alisons party, a lil of kims 2nd party, one of my graduation party, some crazy mexicans..good times all around. thanks kodak for the memories.

chris mac- awesome speakers in ur car dude. i appreciate them. they rock. literally lol. i have class @ 730am so i should be sleeping but i kno i wont fall asleep in the near future so w/e man. the other day on my way into work @ west john some weird spanish guy was tryin 2 holla holla @ me...and callin me a mamichula ..i was scared but its all gravy..funny times. i BITCHED out doug at work. hes a fuckin grown ass man and i OWNED him. i was screamin @ the top of my lungs 2 him and i told him 2 get his head out of his ass. awesomeee. p.s wheres fucker..havent heard from him all weekend..hmm?

quote of the nite by chris mac: "you know..ive learned one thing in all my years of being fat..its that there is always room for a twinkie" hahah awesome chris..awesome!

kristen..if ur reading this. i know this is random but i was thinkin about it b4..do u remember this "DOES MY FOREHEAD SAY TOYOTAS BITCH??" haha. for some reason i was just thinkin about that..hah good times.

ps-happy birthday kayla..woo woo ur 13 =)

well im out now. ill leave u fools with a picture

u could be my sunshine <l33

2004-10-17T02:33:59Z

holleration 2 everyone =)

well its been a while since i wrote an actual entry so i decided to write one ..well that and the fact that im just sitting here on my saturday nite alone @ home woo woo..i mean its by choice..actually a lot of people asked me 2 chill 2nite woo woo -> i just need some time 2 collect myself..ya kno. i think everyone needs times like that some times.

im just watchin my yankees gain the 5 run lead in the 4th inning of game 3 against the fuckin gay red socks. we rock so far. AWESOME!

i got my pussy back yo! i was sooo glad to have my precious baby back. i actually missed it. huh..who wouldve known?! lol

hmm..i went 2 two different haunted houses with my crackaaaas joey and christine..fun times up in there man. i thought i was gonna pee my pants in that first one. i wasnt the worst though, kristies friend nicole was actually crying in the 2nd house...i was tryin 2 calm her down she was squeezing my hand so tight i was about 2 cry lol. good times tho. i think we're gonna hit up the haunted maze soon =)

i worked 2day 7am-1pm. it felt so good to not have 2 work on my saturday nite. i hate it..but then again im just sittin here alone on my 1st sat. nite off. yesss go me! well i was supposed 2 be having a talk with fucker but yea that didnt happen..of course. hes being stupid..i hate guys so much. they all suck so much. PPOOOOOOOOOOOO. we got in like 3 fights this week and we only talked like 3 times. wtf man? i wish we could just have a fuckin normal convo again. i dont kno...after work i went home for a bit then danielle hit me up!! and told me 2 come thru 2 some festivities with her, kate, and CHA CHA!! it was good seeing them all. good times...and MANYYYY laughs wowwww. we saw the he-she...funny as hell. that fuckin guy and his screeching chair..i was about 2 strangle him GRRR. after that kate and kari bounced and me and danielle started some festivities of our own =) we dropped my car off @ my house and the buick was our guide the rest of the afternoon! woo woo. we went 2 halloween usa, target, roosevelt field mall, broadway mall...and hit up some parkways along the way! thanks for the good times dani!..aahhh i wish we were still out lol.

*christine -> thanks for the lil girl talk 2day. it really made me feel so much better after thinking of what you said and rethinking everything. im not gonna let that shyt even affect me anymore u kno...like u said. thanks for being there for me in my VERY bitchyyy mood 2day, ur such an awesome friend to me and im so glad we're so close now. i honestly dont think i would be happy rite now if i didnt have u here by my side. i love you girl <3 =)

well i think this concludes my lil journal fiesta portion of the nite. it was good timesss

-//> oh simple thing...where have you gone? <l3

lilmaze789 @ 2004-10-14T23:41:00

2004-10-15T03:41:51Z

KiM iS AWESOME!!!

lilmaze789 @ 2004-10-11T20:27:00

2004-10-12T00:28:41Z

<l3<l3<l3<l3<l3<l3<l3<l3

lilmaze789 @ 2004-10-07T12:28:00

2004-10-07T16:44:45Z

wow i havent updated in a while..hmm nothin 2 interesting/exciting has happened at all in my life. but what else is new lol.

my grandma is mad crazy. she has aim and the only people she has on her buddy list is me and my cousins and it just so happens that me and basically all my cousins have some form of our last name 'maser' in our screen names, so my grandma never knows who we are. she IMed me yesterday 'tommy is this you?' and im like 'umm no gram its melissa' and she was like god damit i can never tell ur online names apart. she got all pissed, and i was like 'lol' then she wanted 2 kno wat 'lol' was. i need 2 school her on this whole internet thing.

ive been sooo sick lately. oh man my nose is always runny, my eyes were all watery, i had a friggin cold sore on my mouth, my head was pounding, and when i got up, the room spins. lol. but im ok now. i took medicine like every 6 hours exactly..i thought i was gonna OD. when i was @ work on sunday i asked joey wat he thought was better, advil cold & sinus, or dayquil, and hes like hmm i dont kno just take both. so i took one of each and i was good for like 6 hours ..good shyt.

ive been in such a blahhhh mood lately for reasons unknown 2 me?! hmm i dont kno man. i def know of one thing that is DEF bothering me, and as much as i dont want to admit it to myself...i kno its true. i can keep denying it all i want, but it wont change how i feel unfortunatly. grrrrrrr. help me!!

-> wow ..rite now there are 2 chinese women and a lil chinese baby walkin around in front of my house and on my lawn? wtf is going on here?, ok the little one is screaming now..i think its some sort of sayance?! lol <-

my pussy is going in for surgery on monday! woo hoo. finally that thang will be fixed. my pussy got banged pretty darn hard to cause $2800 in damages..that shyt is nootttt cool.

im bored rite now. i have another class in an hour and 10 minutes and then i have work 7-11 @ west john street if anyone would like 2 come and visit me =) but i highly doubt it lol. im out for now homeslices.

fuck everyone

2004-09-29T21:09:49Z

you know what? fuck everyone. e v e r y o n e! u think u know someone and that u can trust them..but u know what, u cant! u think u have friends that are there for u and would never do anything to hurt u, yeahh..think again! people are sooo fuckin fake, and i cant trust anybody anymore. at a time when friends are supposed 2 help get u through..theyre just burying me more. i dont need this fuckin shit anymore.. its O L D ! if u have something 2 say? say it 2 me 'friend(s)'. u think u could talk 2 ur friends about anything...hah. not unless u wanna be judged and talked about. its kinda sad when u can count the number of people you trust on one hand and still have fingers to spare. this is all such a fuckin joke...fuck it all

lilmaze789 @ 2004-09-28T22:03:00

2004-09-29T02:04:48Z

SO LiTTLE TiME

TRY TO UNDERSTAND THAT iM

TRYiNG 2 MAKE A MOVE JUST 2 STAY iN THE GAME

i TRY 2 STAY AWAKE & REMEMBER MY NAME

BUT EVERYBODYS CHANGiNG

& i DONT FEEL THE SAME

lilmaze789 @ 2004-09-21T12:20:00

2004-09-21T16:21:49Z

WHERE ARE YOU ?!?

lilmaze789 @ 2004-09-20T17:06:00

2004-09-20T21:25:48Z

iM BORED OUTTA MY BiRDdDdD...

YEA SO WATS GOOD PEEEPS? iM EXTREMELY BORED RiTE NOW. iM HOME FROM SCHOOL AND i JUST FiNiSHED MY iTALiAN ESSAY (A+ BABYYY YEAHHH) ANYWAYZ i SHOULD DO MY 4 ENGLiSH ESSAYS BUT YEAA..i DONT THiNK SO LOL. =] iM SOOO TiRED i ALMOST FELL ASLEEP iN ENGLiSH ONCE AGAiN..THAT SHYT iS NOT COOL. BUT i DO GOTTA GiVE MY PROFESSOR PROPS FOR HiS GAYY AND CORNY ATTEMPTS TO TRY 2 KEEP US UP AT THAT RiDiCULOUS HOUR OF THE MORNiNG..BUT iTS JUST NOT DOiN iT PAAAAL.. GRR ACTUALLY i SHOULD BE STUDYiNG FOR MY iTALiAN QUiZ 2MORRW, BUT THATS MY ONLY CLASS 2MORRW SO iLL HAVE ALL DAY 2MORRW LOL. iM SUCH A PROCRASTiNATOR..OH WELL

SO YEA. MY CAR iS FUCKED UP. i GOT AN ESTiMATE FOR iT 2DAY AND iTS $2800...WTF MAN. OH WELL. THE ACCiDENT WAS NOT MY FAULT ONE BiT SO iTS NOT MY PROBLEM 2 WORRY ABOUT...EXCEPT FOR THE FACT THAT MY NECK REALLLLY HURTS. FUCKiNNNN SHYT

HAPPY LATE BiRTHDAY ALiSON. i MEAN i WASNT LATE WiSHiNG U A HAPPY BDAY..JUST LATE WRiTiN iT iN THE JOURNAL. BUT iTS ALL GOOD. HOW DOES iT FEEL BEiNG LEGAL? SORRY BOUT THE GAME...THOSE FUCKiN RED SOX WiLL PAY FOR iT DAMMiT.

i WENT BOWLiN LAST NiTE WiT JOE CHRiSTiNE AND ALiSON. GOOD TiMES ALL AROUND, AND i ONLY SUCKED BC OF THE 'LASHES..RiTE ALi? LOL. i GOT ALL THE 'LASHES ONE CAN EVER HAVE... DAMMMMiT. PLUS JOE TRiPPED ME SO MY SCORE SUFFERED DRAMATiCALLY LOL...i <3 EXCUSES =]

EVERWOOD iS ON 2NiTE..iM EXCiTED. i <3 EPHRAM DAMMiT. i WOULD MARRY HiM iN A HEARTBEATTT LOL. MMMM HES ENJOYABLE. iM A LiL HUNGRY RiTE NOW...HAVENT EATEN ALL DAY SO GOTTA DO THAT SOON LOL. iM JUST SOOO DAMN BORED i DONT KNO WAT TO DO THO. GRR

HMM YEA..PEACE OUTSiDE FOR NOW. MAYBE iLL WRiTE MORE LATER WHEN THE BOREDOM DECiDED 2 OVERCOME ME AGAiN...

i guess every form of refuge has its price...

2004-09-14T16:56:29Z

here i am beside myself again

im torn apart by words that you have said

and all in all, i know we're falling apart

where did you run to so far away?

***********************************************************

hmm. so im in one of those moods. so much shyt has been on my mind lately that i dont even know where to begin. i actually put my foot down against focker, and now i feel like i regret it. why do i feel like that? i thoughtttt i was making the right decision, but maybe not. all we did for 2 hours on friday was fight. thats not normal. well actually for us it is, but it shouldnt be. i just want things to be ok. but i dont think that is ever going to happen between us. and just when it seems like things are going fine, something fucks it up. oh well..thats life i guess

i have class in an hour. i think tuesdays are such a waste of time to me considering i only have one class at 1:50 and then im outta there by 3. i wish i could just have tuesdays off, especially considering my mondays and wednesdays are killerr. i have 4 classes each those days. which sucksss asss, but at least kristen and i have some time in between classes to spend together. i also have been making more friends @ school which is awesome. so big UPs to sandra, stephanie, everest, nate, nicole, kim, brian, jackie, stephen, and maria. those are my molloy friends so far lol. i kno im gay. anywayssss

i got some pics developed and the love of my life was in it (chan-u kno who im talkin about <333 lol) im sorry but that boy look damn good. mmmmmm haha. wat else is new. ohh i finsished my freakin room finally. i dont really remember if i wrote that in my last journal lol. but i got my computer, im on it rite now actually =) i loveeee it. i have a 19 inch flat screen monitor lol. awesome times. so far only chris, mark, and alison have seen it. and they all like it =) woo woo. everwood was on last nite...I <3 EPHRAMMMMM rite chan?! hes awesome.

yankee game on friday i believe...well thats the plans anyway but who knows..this shyt is all crazy..its ok ali this will work out lol. ps - the hotness level has DEF been lowered a few notchesss lol. yeaaa ur bday is on friday. woo woo 18. ps congratss again on getting ur license. maybe u can come pick me up sometime soon. lol. xoxo

anyways i gotta be out for school homeslices. PeaCeeee

...damnnn it feels good to be a GaNgStAaA //*

so long sweet summer..

2004-09-10T17:42:51Z

wow wow its been a whileee (scary movie style lol). my life has been a lil chaotic lately. poopers.

last weekend me and pops tore my room apart in preperations for redoing it. i threw away like 9 bags of pure junk! it was insane how much S H Y T was in there. i threw away a desk, a hutch, a bookcase, a vanity table, an endtable, a headboard, a table a curtain rod, a bed frame, a bed, and a boxspring - all from my room! it was craaazy. the walls are now painted, my desk is in place, my furniture is re arranged, the carpet is steamed..the only thing left is for that damn computer 2 be there; but NO worries because pauls bringin it later on 2nite =) woo woo. im mucho excited!! its my own personal sanctuary..and God knows i need one...

tuesday morning my awesome cousin anthony chirped me and told me he had FOUR extra tickets 2 that nites yankee game and would i be interested?! ..hmm YES! thank the lord i didnt have work that nite. soo i thought about it for a second and realized i did nottt wanna drive 2 the bronx considering i dont kno where the efff to go, so ant said i could take one friend..and then we could drive with him..so i called up kimmy and she was in. me and her reminisced about all the yankee games we went 2 together in like 9th and 10th grade! fun shyt lol. so anthony drives like a mad man but im used 2 it all thanks 2 slurp and d.p.a woo woo. i didnt like his car when i saw it but i def love it now. its sooo nice lol. even kim liked it. good job homeboy. so the yanks won that nite thank god. i would have been dissapointed if they didnt. good times all around.

the next day i started molloy. not bad but mondays and wednesdays are gonna be bad. i have 4 classes w/a 2 hour break in between my 2nd and 3rd class. wtf? thats gonna suck. i met this kid nate who is in my psychology class and my FST class and hes mad cool and we have a lot in common and i think we're hangin out on sunday lol. but we'll see, anyway i like my classes so far and it seems like a good school so im excited. im especially excited 2 be away from the high school drama..wait? am i away from the high school drama? bc it seems 2 me that people like 2 lie 2 me. and not just anyyyy ol' peeps..peeps that i trust, and that are close 2 me. *some closer than others * when people dont tell me the truth ...and lie about it..and then i catch the lie..thats pretty harsh..especially when i would NEVER expect that shyt from her.

anywayyy.my hours for work have been reduced drastically ! awesome! im so excited for that. and i think im back @ ocr most of the time now! woo woo woo.

-/> this has nothing to do with this journal entry but christine just called me from joeys phone and the caller id said 'josephine'..and i was like who the fuck is that? and then remembered i have him in my phone under that due 2 all the other joeys..i just thought it was funny..i laughed =) </-

christine and joey have become my social life. when im not home..im with them. its awesome!! i think im goin 2 christines house later ..not sure bc i have work till 6 ..but we'll see. ill prob end up there bc its not like i have offers pouring in to chill or anythin lol. the only people i have actually chilled with recently are christine, joey, christina, chris (wow alot of chris's etc) kim, my cousin and brittany, and mark. woo hoo. thats awesome. CHAN WHERE R U?! lol when im not w/joe or christine...im @ my house and chris is normally here 2 lol. that kid is insane. keeps me crackin up all nite. the other nite him and mark left @ like 3am..good shyt. theyre a guaranteed fun time.

things w/fucker are mad weird. i think hes pickin me up from work 2nite..im not sure?! its all so confusing. 'he wants 2 talk and he hasnt seen me in 3 weeks and hates it.'.and all this other nonsense...bla bla bla whatevaa, whatevaa, i do wat i want! haha lafont. anyways..im out =)

sounds like a party in ur pants =)

2004-08-21T06:16:37Z

thats my new motto bitches - learn it ; live it ; love it =)

so anyway. im kinda bored. not really though because im reading a good article about the laci peterson trial in my new People magazine (the husband did it! why do we need a trial...its sooo obvious! - fuckin men!) and also not bored because im talkin 2 ali.

ok so last nite i write such a l o o o n n g journal entry..and u know wat ..it got deleted rite when i was goin 2 save it! i was FURIOUS!! but im ok now. i got over it. breaathhee mel ..breathe

i went to work yesterday..and the schedule was up. i had 32 hours this week, not bad. i wasnt complaining. yeaaa so someone quit and i walked outta work with 52 hours. WTF?! i got an extra 20 hours added onto my fuckin schedule. that shyt is absolutely nuts! imma be deaddd tired.

my one day off is monday and im goin 2 the outlets with alison. which soooo sounds like a party in everyones pants =) im gonna get some new sneakers bc God knows i need it right? hahhhh. then maybe stop at a few peoples houses while we are out there whooo knows?! maybe alison can get some cookies..i dont kno yet. i cant see that far into the future.

kims party in sunday. one word: C R U N K E D D D yeahhhh. like i said..no work on monday =D fuck yea mofo. im feelin it. its gonna be off the chain. then alisons party is next saturday so that one is gonna be off the hizzle. woo hoo. and dont worry alison..i will FIND a way 2 sleep over God dammit if it kills me. ok just kidding..i dont wanna die

i went 2 get my cell fixed 2day. wat an excursion that was. the point is..its fixed and im happpppy. awesome!

joey and christine left me for the weekend =( damn them. i guess i can manage without them lol. christine is gonna get it BIG DAWG style bc of her habits of shooting me! imma get u..dont worry about it chris... heheh

fuck face was supposed 2 call me like 2 days ago..and he didnt! wooo hooo. oh well. u dont see me losing any sleep over it. my friggin cats are drivin me crazy. why do cats have 2 be nocturnal. theyre running on a rampage thru the kicthen. i hear them running like mach speed back and forth..and i think imma snap if they dont stop asap!!

wow there is something about this song that gets me rite where it means somethin. i dont know wat it is. i think just the lyrics and melody but i <3 this song. i was tellin kim this 2day. this song gets me in the hearttt <l3

well this journal was long enoughhhh.

peace out-side...

is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?

2004-08-16T05:12:47Z

tonite was a waste of precious time .

went 2 heathers for less than an hour..i just wasnt feeling that whole scene 2day. it sucks because i should be allowed 2 enjoy those kinds of things...but i dont. i worked THIRTEEN hours 2day..i just wanted 2 pass out! i hope everyone else had fun though. danielle is really drunk rite now and IM-ing me...she must have had fun lol. alison gave me a bracelet 2nite..its really nice..thanks alison <3

my eyelids feel like they're a million pounds rite now. each minute is making it harder and harder to fight sleep and its only 1 am. im normally up to at least 3.

2morrw i have 2 go w/mommy dearest to straighten my college shyt out. that should be interesting..and hopefully i get to switch my saturday class =) keep ur fingers crossed.

throughout the nite ive been mainly thinkin of one thing. its really bothering me...and u kno why its bothering me..bc i put myself in this position A G A I N!! why am i such a friggin idiot?! no answer since wednesday?! i should be fine..yet im letting it control my thoughts and dreams. why am i dumb? i promised myself this time was just for fun ; im not having fun yet...

theres another thing that bothering me too. why is the fact that me becoming sooo close w/new people...tearing me up inside at the same time? it should be good that im doing new things...which it is ..dont get me wrong, i LOVE EVERY MINUTE of hanging out w/the crackers (lol <3 u guys) but its causing me such internal drama...im such a fuckin mess. alison said "its good to have back up friends"...yea it is..but my problem is i cant figure out which ones are 'back up'?!

i need some good therapy rite about now. =/ i just need some help.

im out like a fat kid in dodgeball <-

you're my * G o o D * feeling

2004-08-14T05:15:20Z

hola children. hows everyone doin? good...ok. i have work in 7 hours and i should be sleepin..but thats just not my cup of tea. im bored..ive been bored most of the day.

its been weird having 3 days off in a row. i didnt kno wat to do with myself having all that time on my hands. i went tanning, and running! i ran 7 laps @ holy trinity. i was verry proud of myself. woo woo. im gonna try and make that an everyday thing..and i think im gonna join the gym again..u kno - gotta get in shape =) im scared about starting school. the summer is basically over already =( grr it went wayyyy too fast! i want there 2 be more months of it dammit.

ive been basically hangin out with joe and christine everyday. fun times up in there! "gooch..its ur turn!" haha. christine ur a messs!..no matter wat kristie says =) and NO...i dont just respond to text messages..its just ur phone makes my phone all fucked up for some reason lol. i dont think we're gonna go to d.p.a this week because of what happened last week lol..and also because i think its supposed 2 massively rainn. pooop. fucker has not answered anyyyy of my texts in like 4 days. im starting to get a little worried about him. thats def NOT like him at all. hmmmm..makes me wonder.

alison is home! wooo hooo. its been weird not havin her around. but everything is good again lol. i missssssssssed u girllll <333

my leg hurts. someone helpp?! noo? okkkay. anyway im reallllly bored ...and i realllly need 2 get 2 bed because im workin 8 hours 2morrw =( why me. they think im the bitch of 7-11. dammit

im out like a fat kid in dodgeball <-

ohh ronsil...

2004-08-11T04:15:18Z

ok..i have not written in a while. my life is boring ((what can i say?)) anyway..im bored. its midnite and i just got home from work, which sucked like always ; at least kim chan and lau visited me 2nite =) thats was nice..thanks girls <33 i actually had to work till 11 tonite as opposed 2 my normal 10 lol. which suckedd asssss.

my stomach hurts [&] havin my hurricane DOES NOT help the situation @ all =( my cats r running on a rampage around my house. 'cmon guys its late..stop!' '

no more work till saturday..yay. im excited about that. i have to figure out my school / work schedule for the fall. i dont wanna go to school. fuckkker.

well saturday was an interesting nite. fucker almost got arrested..that would have made my nite =) ..shyt ; that would have made my year. i dont kno wats goin on w/me and him..we're ALWAYS fighting...ALWAYS! it sucks..and i dont like being in fites w/him but we butt heads a lottt. i think we both want different things...but theres something we both want that keeps us in this same spot. i dont kno wat it is..but theres somethin..and i cant deny that. <l3 well im chillin w/him 2morrw so we can hopefully sort some things out but whenever we try 2 "sort" things out..we dont..and we end up in the same spot we are always in... in the words of the wedding singer.." LOVE STINKS"...

i went tanning 2day. i gotta start goin again ! im runnin outta tans tho so i also gotta buy a new package..sucks..i hate spending my moneyyy

p.s- i havent seen/heard from kelli or kristen... wTf..whereee are youuu guysssss?!?!?

well im done for now..my whole body is aching so i need 2 rest up. especially if im playin kickball 2morrw...lol. im such a childddd =]~

im out like a fat kid in dodgeball <-

lilmaze789 @ 2004-08-08T01:58:00

2004-08-08T06:00:30Z

its not supposed to feel like this <l3

who needs a shower??...meeee!

2004-07-27T20:09:34Z

wow. my whole body is achingggg rite now! kiLLLL me pleaseee! damn sports. kickball was A L O T of fun 2day. me kim dani and ali all had massive amounts of fun. kim.."WE ALLLL MAKE MISTAKES!!" haha. that girl was a lil bitchy in the beginning but was a lotttt better by the end. woo woo. i was so tired by the last inning...i was like oh fuck this..and made it a 1-2-3 inning. watchuuu kno about that! that one was ALLL for u christine! fun times. we planned on hitting on friendlys but we were all sooo grimey and wanted showers badddly! so now im home about 2 hop in the shower and hit up my sisters house for lil while. we're gonna play kickball soon! so be prepared. oh p.s. the teams were me kim ali/dani joey and christina VS. christine mikey tad and keith! and who won? myyyy team woo hoo. we dominated! and we will next time as well! woo hoo

i cant wait for hershey park dammit. its not coming soon enough! imma hit up allll the rides. woo hoo.

last nite i saw the bourne supremacy. it was good even tho i do not remember the first one AT ALL! and i was gonna duff this kid that was sitting in front of me in his friggin head! stupid bitch! anyway..i must depart for now

im out like a fat kid in dodgeball <-

..its the n-o..t-o..r-i..O..u-s..u just..lay down s l o w <3

2004-07-23T16:45:14Z

recognize a real don when u see one...sippin on booze in the house of blues =)...word up B.I.G! haah

last nite was fabulous..lol. we all had fun blasting the old school BSB...not a fan..i have 2 admit. but i was howie so i wasnt a big part anyway lol. that shyt was crazzzy. yayyy i dont have work 2day..thats awessomee

wow..i hear my cats in their lil corner of the kitchen banging against the cardboard..those crazy assholes. imma let them out in a minute. i need 2 go take my friggin vacuum 2 the sears repair center. WHYYY ME. and my sister is coming 2day so now i have 2 clean..again..i dont kno why we cant just keep the house clean assssholes! noo..that would be the easy thing 2 do. i must depart for now..ciao ciao

dfnpfnpanfpn...grrrrrrrrrrrrr </3 im out like a fat kid in dodgeball <-

ur eyes cant hide what ur lips wont say...

2004-07-22T18:22:18Z

odafnoasdfjdfihad...that is how i feel rite now. isnt that grand?!

yesterday was interesting...an all around weird day lol. heathers was fun overall...especially seeing kim spill all the friggin water allll over herself..i almost pee-ed in my pants...and alison wouldnt get outta the damn bathroom...ahah crazy ass shyt. oh kim...ur a messs.

nisha called me from florida twice! shes havin fun and she should be in orlando rite now havin madd fun. she also called me from the fitness center! who the hell worries about fitness on vacation!? nisha ur a crazy asshole!

so onto my mission. yesterday i was supposed 2 have my mission accomplished @ 4:30...there were just a FEW obstacles so the mission wasnt complete till about 8 oclock. but w/e...same shyt. i had a good time..he had a good time..we both had a good time until we started fighting. i can bet money that everytime we're together we start fighting over somethin lol. ohh well. i let him kno i was sorry for being a bitch and he seems 2 care but u all kno him..he cant be trusted =/

i have work in 40 minutes and im still in my pajamas and didnt even start gettin ready. ohh well. and i wanted 2 go to friggin cvs before work and pick up some makeup bc im almost out ...poooop. today is pay day woo woo. i need the mooooolaaaahhh. lol. im so0o gayy.

im out like a fat kid in dodgeball <-

damn! i gotta shave my back...

2004-07-19T16:28:34Z

last nite was fun times. nisha i hope u have maddd fun in florida and dont let shyt w/friends get u down..and dont let things w/boysss get u down either. its vacation time ..have some fun girl =) but not toooo much fun. my aunt nancy and family is coming here 2nite sooo i gotta clean uppp. sucks man. plus i have work @ 4. so i better get started asap.

kel..my little situationnn is gettin uncontrollable so my friggin mission better be completed sooooon!!! ..its becoming to feel like mission:impossible. =( poooop.

i dontttt wanna go to work dammmit. wat the hell! i just wana quit sometimes. this shyt sucks. im goin 2 hershey park in like a week and 3 days or some shyt like that so i cannnnot wait for that. imma have so much fun bc thats how i roLL! lol. im gayy anyway im really bored rite now dammit. i think after work 2nite me christine and joey are goin 2 some shindig by christines house. fun times 2 be hadd. and dont worry christine..im gonna get u back =)

well i must go clean the casa and play with the kittens. woo woo

im out like a fat kid in dodgeball <-

lilmaze789 @ 2004-07-19T01:10:00

2004-07-19T05:12:39Z

i feel so alive...

2004-07-18T19:58:29Z

last nite was the most fun i have had in God only knows how long!!! i wish it was still last nite bc i already miss it. i felt alive and i felt wanted and i felt awesome.

i think last nite was the offical beginning of a new me. i came home at fuckin 3:30 AM and loved every minute of being out. there were some points where i should have acted differently...but wat can i tell ya. im on a mission for god sakes. <3 =)

im out like a fat kid in dodgeball <-